At this time last year, I was overwhelmingly confused as to what I wanted. I’m sure I wasn’t the only one. So when I say it’s important to understand yourself and know what you really want, you’re probably thinking, “easier said than done.” I am in total agreement. And when I say that in due time it will all come to you clearly, and that you will soon feel satisfied and in-control, you’ll probably doubt the credibility of this essay. Again, I understand completely. I was in your shoes not too long ago, and I know the stresses of a high school student.
Here’s the fun part: my failures as a high school student, things I regret a little and now know I’d do over if I had the chance. I’m not here to lecture you with what’s “right”. Rather, I’m just telling you the truth, things as they happened to me and as I chose them, and letting you decide how you might apply it to your own high school career.
When it comes to what I regret, it’s pretty easy. I definitely did not get involved enough in school. This year I came to realize all the things I passed up on, held out on, and ignored because of insecurities and stubbornness. Basically, my problem boiled down to a few things.
First, I was too closed-minded towards my school because I frankly didn’t want to be there. I’d just moved and left behind a lifestyle and friends that I’d come to love.
My resistance to getting involved was also caused by how I relied too much on the judgment of others at school and at home. That only confused me more. Such a mindset continuously limits you until there’s nothing left, because you can’t please everyone.
Lastly, I fell into a pattern of excuses regarding my choice to not become more involved. Basically, I’d make up any excuse possible to avoid the commitment: I couldn’t, because...I didn’t have a ride, ...I didn’t have time, ...I didn’t like this person or that person, and so on. You get the idea.
And as a result, I have a plethora of talents that were dormant for four years. I am eager to begin making up for it, though, now that I’m beginning college.
Now that I’m positioned to start college, I look back on my time in high school and consider myself lucky that my choices to avoid involvement and to procrastinate didn’t demolish my shot at attending a good university. After all, I didn’t come to a solid decision of where I would apply until it was near time to send in applications. When I finally brought myself around to doing it, I wasn’t familiar with their requirements and ended up writing seven different essays in a very short period of time. They weren’t all my best work. Not to mention all the other SAT, scholarship, and FAFSA deadlines.
I never want to do that again. I never want anyone to experience that kind of stress either. Make your own life less stressful by keeping an eye on Time, he’s a tricky one. Doubts, excuses, and procrastination are the enemies. You have control over your life, and if you ever need help, you’re not alone! Help is everywhere; you just have to let people know that you need it. My counselor was an amazing source of help for me. I would have felt lost and maybe even enrolled in the wrong university if it hadn’t been for her.
Then, once you know how to manage time, it’s easy to make time for fun activities--minus the guilt, of course, of knowing you have something to do. If you feel weighed down and joyless, its time to make a change in your life. Don’t be the one who spends the summer in regret. Make sure you enjoy your years in high school, because you only get a high school experience once. It’s up to you to make it unforgettable.