I think this is what’s best for me because I’m going to be able to show myself and my peers that I can do it by myself because I’m not going to always have somebody to depend on in the future.
It’s going to be a challenge in many ways because I don’t know where I’ll be going to school, where I’m going to live or how will I support myself through all this. All I do know is I have to take it one day at a time.
But in the end I will be giving up a lot, because after I graduate high school and college I want to go to Nigeria, Africa, to work with the deaf children. The reason I want to go to Nigeria is because my great aunt was a missionary there when she was younger and about six years ago, I started going deaf in my left ear and the doctors thought I would lose all my hearing so I started doing sign language and I just fell in love with it.
The main factor on deciding on where I go to college is what they offer to help me get ready go to Nigeria. This is such important thing for me, and I want to give it my all in helping other kids get the help they need because they really do deserve the best they can get.
I will have to leave my friends and family and I don’t want to do that because I’m so used to having their support in whatever I do.
But right now where I’m at in life, I really try to believe that’s what God wants me to do. This decision is already having an effect on my family -- because there is so much violence in this world they don’t want me to be some place where I can’t take care of myself, and going out on my own after high school is a way to show them that I can handle anything that comes my way.
Scared to miss things
This is not only hard for my family but also hard on me because I’m scared to death that when I’m gone I might miss something important in my family or friends lives that I should be there to see. My home life has not always been the best to grow up in but they are my family and I can honestly say that I would not have made it this far without them.
But at this point all I can do is pray to God that I’m making the right choice for my life because that’s what it is, my life and I’m responsible on how I live it. I may have some obstacles in my way as I go out on my own, but all it’s going to do is prepare me for the next thing that is going to come along.
Sidebar: The main factor on deciding on where I go to college is what they offer to help me get ready go to Nigeria. This is such important thing for me, and I want to give it my all in helping other kids get the help they need because they really do deserve the best they can get.